dealing with chronic pain and degenerate disk disease, and it has been really rough for me in the last six months im trying to get on disability, everyone says im ttooooo young to be on it. Just stopped by to say hello and let you know where i was and where im headed. sorry i have been away. peace.

I look around this town I live in, well sort of a city. It is dead, lifeless, cultureless and drab. It is ugly with cracked roads full of bumps and holes, midways with dead grass, trees that are begging to be trimmed and people walking around aimlessly with no real intent in their lives. I didn't realize a city like this could actually exist. It is something out of a villain comic story sometimes. Drug deals and gun shots gone bad, young pregnancies and drop outs. This town is… Continue

I admit, the last year I have spent chasing dreams filled with money, a big house, lots of material things etc. I have wanted to experience the wealthy life, move to the city, and really live. I see all these huge houses on TV, people living out the American Dream, making money, spending it. But money has always been the one big challenge in my life. For some reason no matter what card reading I get, money crosses me. It is something I am constantly told to be patient about, the men I dated and… Continue

today [ july 18th,2009 ],



My wife and I watched the movie premintion starring sandra bullock, Julian Mcmahon; It felt like I was seeing my twenties all over again and yet, i had never stopped to look back at what had happened to the people i had gone to bat for. I remember the first time it occured.

a teacher had said something aweful; my retoe was you be next week. have nice life. then the next day she had died in a car accident i have spent the rest of my life helping those… Continue

Ok so lately I am meeting a lot of people, making new friends and so on and I guess this needs to be a sociology lesson here because I know I am not alone. Some people just don't mix and often one party wants to mix while the other just sees it as painfully obvious it is never going to really work out.



Like some people you meet are so nice, then you learn all they do is spend their free time talking about other people and in bad ways. You quickly begin to wonder, how long before they… Continue